Song and a Doodle #13


My newest favorite band is Good Old War. How I didn't know about these fellows earlier is way beyond me! I've been missing out big time! The song Amazing Eyes has to be one of the cutest songs EVER! Now you know anyone can win my heart by telling me I have amazing eyes! But for reals, awesome guitar riff and sweet lyrics is a win, win in my book!  



Thinking too much.

brain overload

I've bad case of the over thinking today. Its' making me oddly emotion and sad. BUT tomorrow is another day and it  WILL be better. I know it will...it has to be.

Pillow Talk by Wild Child

My latest obsessions is the song Pillow Talk by Wild Child. It popped up the other day on a spotify playlist. After the first listen I knew it was a song that I needed to learn how to play. So I quickly found it on the lovely interweb. (HERE) It was surprisingly easy and oober fun to sing. Although it is a duet so  if you pay attention to the lyrics it doesn't make much sense having one person singing it. But it is fun to do a "guy" voice on the opposite parts, but I never last long doing that before I bust out laughing. One of these days I'll get up the courage to make a video of me singing! Until then I'll just annoy the crap outta Zoei and sing talk everything to her!



IT'S FRIDAY! That means I'm sleeping in!


As of Late...

Things seem so busy lately. But not a fun busy. A do your laundry and clean the kitchen kinda busy. But I'm happy to say that I'm getting lots of stuff done! Who know moving out of my parents would mean so much to do. Planning dinners alone is making my indecisiveness go crazy. Also finding time to go shopping, cook THEN clean up the kitchen. It seems so simple yet takes up so much time. I still am living outta boxes so finding clothes in the morning is pretty terrible and takes twice as long. Not knowing where any stores are located and relying on google to tell us where everything is makes all of the simple things take FOREVER! In the end I guess its all just part of the learning a new place and I'm waiting for the fun part to kick in a little more. I mean, its fun..but not fun fun. If that makes any sense.


On the bright side, Zoei has been making REALLY yummy food! We had yakisoba noodles last night that were awesome! On the downside, Zoei thinks its way fun to eat with chopsticks. Her and Dirk seem to eat everything fine with them, its a bit more tricky for me. I mean, I CAN eat with them, just not gracefully. 


 I finally got my room painted! So now I can actually start unpacking things. It looks so sad right now, like just some creepy basement. The walls kinda remind me of a school, plus the high windows. I guess its still a working progress to make it look more homey.


Shu Tzi gives me this look every time we live the house. I think she's adjusting better then I am! Except when we leave, then she gives you this face. 


This photo is a bit old and not a very good one. BUT I want to get better at taking photos of people and places and things. So I'm sharing it anyways. Plus, these guys are so much fun to hang out with. 

So much to do, never enough time! 



Currently...

I believe this song is accurately discribing my life in its current state. Well, maybe just parts of it. Its a brilliant song though, don't you agree?


The last few months I’ve been living with this couple. 

Yeah, you know the kind who buy everything in doubles. 

Yeah, they fit together like a puzzle.

I love their love, and I am thankful. That someone actually receives the prize that was promised. 

By all those fairy tales that drugged us and still do me, I’m sick, lonely. 

No laurel tree, just green envy. Will my number come up eventually?.

 Like love’s some kind of lottery. 

Where you scratch and see what’s underneath. It’s sorry, just one cherry. I’ll play again, get lucky.

-Waste of Paint by Bright Eyes-


A Poets Advice by E.E. Cummings


I've recently discovered that I'm absolutely in love with E.E. Cummings. I'm at a point where I'm looking for feelings out of everything and Cummings has a way to make me feel. Maybe even a little too much. But today I wanted to share one of my favorite writings of his. Although I'm not a poet I feel like everyone, at one point in here lives can relate a little bit to the words he as to offer.

A Poets Advice 

A poet is somebody who feels, and who expresses his feeling through words.

This may sound easy. It isn't.

A lot of people think or believe or know they feel - but that's thinking or believing or knowing; not feeling. And poetry is feeling - not knowing or believing or thinking.

Almost anybody can learn to think or believe or know, but not a single human being can be taught to feel. Why? Because whenever you think or you believe or you know, you're a lot of other people: but the moment you feel, you're nobody-but-yourself.

To be nobody-but-yourself - in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else - means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.

As for expressing nobody-but-yourself in words, that means working just a little harder than anybody who isn't a poet can possibly imagine. Why?

Because nothing is quite as easy as using words like somebody else. We all of us do exactly this nearly all of the time - and whenever we do it, we are not poets.

If, at the end of your first ten or fifteen years of fighting and working and feeling, you find you've written one line of one poem, you'll be very lucky indeed.

And so my advice to all young people who wish to become poets is: do something easy, like learning how to blow up the world - unless you're not only willing, but glad, to feel and work and fight till you die.

Does this sound dismal? It isn't.

It's the most wonderful life on earth.

Or so I feel.

Hope you all had a lovely lazy weekend!


Weekend.


Such a successfully lazy accomplished weekend. Oh contradictions you gotta love em. Had a wonderful solstice party at my parents. Who I might add are the coolest people I know and way more hip then I will ever be. They had lots of good food and some random bands play. All the bands were delightfully creepy wonderful AND there neighbors didn't even call the cops! Although I didn't socialize much I love parties just so I can people watch. I'm sure people always wonder who the creepy girl in the corner is staring at them the whole evening. But I don't care! I'm so intrigued with other people and there interactions, but don't care to participate myself. Ok, so maybe that does make me a little bit creepy.

(I know this is a terrible photo. I hardly ever pay attention to the photos I'm taking at these things. Mostly because I'm too caught up in whats going on the focus. )
On Saturday I slept in most the day and didn't get anything done that I wanted too. I did get to go to a Joshua James concert in good ol' downtown Provo, with the two insanely beautiful people. I feel so lucky to live in a place with such good local music. Mr. James never fails to disappoint! We were a little late and had to sit in the back, but it was so amazing it didn't really matter where we were sitting. After getting a little over emotional from all the good tunes it was a car ride back home and then a few hours of The Office before crawling into bed.

Sunday, oh sunday. I did nothing today but eat and write letters. If thats not a perfect Sunday then I don't know what is.

I hope you all had a lovely weekend! They always go by way too quickly.


Lovely Things: Songs No.2!

Current songs that I can't seem to get enough of! Thanks to my obsession with 8tracks I'm finding all these great new songs! I'm pretty sure I've listened to these 10 times each today!



If you love this song, check out the original version! (HERE) Its awesome too! Both very different but equally awesome.



Aww, these guys have some mad guitar playing skills!



Laura Marling's new album is just the bee's knees. I love this lady!



I wish this one had a better video. The the songs is soo good I had to share. Does this remind you of Maria Taylor is it just me?



What songs are your current favorites?

Mystery Mail!

I got a mystery letter in the mail the other day. Just outta the blue a simple little note with out any return address or signature. Not only do I love getting mail but I always love a good mystery! Although, it does kinda suck because I'd love to write this person and send them something lovely in return. So if you sent me this lil note and you happen to stumble upon this post, let me know who you are! I'd love to send you a little doodle or poem!


"Most of all the world is a place where parts of wholes are described within a paradigm of clarity and accuracy; the context in which makes possible an underlying sense of the way it all fits together despite our collective tendency not to conceive of it as such. But then again, the world without end is a place where souls are combined, but witch an overbearing feeling of disparity and disorderliness. To ignore it is impossible without getting oneself into all kinds of trouble, despite ones best intentions to not get entangled with it so much." 

I've read this about 20 times and haven't quite understood entirely what they wanted me too. But there is something really beautiful about reading something over and over and learning something new from it each time, don't you think? What do you think their message to me meant?

Incoming!

I've been having the best mail week ever! All my favorite people have written me this week and everyday I've come home to find my box full of loveliness! Although I'm a bit sad that its going to take me a while to respond. All my letter writing stuff is still packed in boxes. I'm not going to unpack all that stuff until I get my room painted and organized how I want it to be. Which is good of me to be so organized  but also sucks that I can't send out any pretty letters! Anyways, enough complaining. 


One of my newer pen pals Billie has the cutest drawings in her letters! You can check out her blog HERE! 


I ranted on a while ago about this fellows zine. Which you can read HERE. He was kind enough to write me and send me these awesome drawings. This guy's got some mad skills! Now I just need to work on some drawings to send back that are equally as amazing! 


When was the last time you sent a letter?! I love letter writing! Remember you have to send to receice! So why not make someones mail box happy with a little bit of thoughtfulness?


Rambling on about more new-ness!

Its is the season of changes for our family. It all seems so unreal that we are all going though all this new-ness. Zoei and I have finally found a little house and I've finally moved out of my parents! Our oldest sister is now living in the Philippines and my dad is officially retired! Its is the summer for adjusting, to say the least. 

A while ago my dad had a open house thingy at his school. Me and the sisters decided to go and see all the people who loved having him as a teacher. (The whole time I was thinking, what suckers I get to have him as a teacher my entier life, muahahaha!) But really it was cool to see the kiddos that he has taught and how much they all loved him. He has been a teaching there ever since me and Zoei were born, so to think of him NOT teaching at that school in that classroom was really bizarre and kinda surreal. 

My sisters and I got to walk around and peek at his messy art room for one last time. I decided to take a couple pictures. They aren't very good because I just used my phone. 







Cheers to the only art teacher brave enough to give first graders a big ball of clay and teaching them how to make beautiful pottery! He's definitely not your ordinary elementary art teacher! 

I'm loving this song.

I stumbled upon this song, though some blog or something. ( I really should keep better track!) But I'm so smitten over it! Its happy, fun, quick and sweet! I think I've listened to it about 30 times and just had to share! Don't you love finding new tunes! I need to look more of these guys up, but for now this song is enough for me to be in love with them!



ITS ALMOST FRIDAY! I dont' think I've looked forward to the weekend this much before!


This is why I don't talk to people...

Phew! I wasn't prepared for moving to be this much work! I even get to move slowly, yet I seem to be moving all the wrong things at the wrong time. Anyways, I was wanted to get my room painted before I started moving my stuff in. Its the really weird green color right now. I mean don't get me wrong, I love the color green. But I'm not sure what the people were thinking when they painted it. So I figured I  was going to paint it (although we didn't ask our landlord so ssshhh!)

Well, on a quest to get paint we were off to the home depot! We surprisingly picked our color quick! I knew I wanted a greenish-bluish color. After giggling over the silly names that they all we we decided to go with green myth. What the hell is a green myth?? Now I normally have Zoei talk to the people at these kinda things for me. Mostly because half the time I end up word vomiting on them and not making any sense what so ever. Yay, antisocialness/anxiety! (But I'm getting better guys!) I really am making great efforts to bust outta my shell a bit. So me and Zo are waiting in line, its quite a wait because the paint girl was awfully slow (and sassy!) When we were waiting Zoei left and handed me the swatch and said you talk to the girl. I was feeling very brave for some reason, even having an off day of backwards thinking. When it was my turn I told the girl what I wanted and stumbled a bit when she asked what kind of paint I needed, she wasn't too terribly rude but did huff and puff a little bit because I wasn't sure if I wanted eggshell or semi-gloss or whatnots. Who knew there were so many options! After stumbling around a bit she wrote it down and got a mixing!

I waited a bit and finally my paint was mixed and waiting on the counter for me. At this point I'm feeling pretty proud of myself that I talked to the girl and didn't turn too red. But once I picked up my paint can my heart sunk a little bit. The color on the lid was waaaay to light. So I quickly found Zo and asked her, "is this the color we chose?" Well just my luck I told the girl the wrong color!! I wanted the bottom one then the middle one! Once I realized what I had done I was MORTIFIED! Quickly realized this is why I have a Zoei to help me talk to people! I was so embarrassed at this point I was going to settle for the breath mint color instead of the one I wanted. I just wanted to get the hell outta there! But of course Zoei's boy was nice enough to go BACK to the paint place and fess up to the mistake that I made.

I felt so stupid I really wanted to cry and run away. Luckily for me I have the greatest friends ever! They didn't get mad or tease me and helped me get the right color. Although the paint boy that helped us had the stupidest look on his face and we had to repeat, "yes, she told you the wrong color earlier." My face was bright red the whole time and I was fighting back tears. (lame I know, I hate making mistakes!) In the end we got the right color and I had a mini-freak out but survived! But I can't go back to that home depot anytime soon!

Sigh, I should've taken photos of the lime green! I'll post them later once I'm not so scattered! Literally I've stuff between places and I'm just hoping that I don't lose track of my undies! This post is a little bit long and more wordy then usual, but I had to share my embarrassing story. I hope I don't have to buy paint anytime soon.

Is it the weekend yet?


NO TIME!

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Ugh, there no time for anything. No time for doodle, no time for Etsy browsing or blog reading. I'm getting so behind on all my favorite blogs to read! Luckily the bloglovin' app is pretty amazing. But still, reading bits and bobs as you're walking to the next task isn't enjoying a good blog post! I need sleep, food and to be DONE packing. Unfortunately I think I've only made it to the half way point and its hurricane-ish! I haven't even begun on the deep dark hole that's my closet. Sigh.. Maybe I need a break. I've had the Upper Case Stationary online magazine booked marked for 2 weeks now! Plus a million blog posts to read and a list of 15 bands to look up! needless to say packing is the last thing on my list. But pack we must!! It'll pay off in the end right? A cute new home with my besties better be worth it!

And on that note, I'll have to take lots of photos of our new lil home! I've some great plans and a few buckets of paint in mind. Although we're not allowed to paint, but don't tell anyone!! I'm off to pack and sweat!

Hope your week is off to a peachy keen start!!


Monday Already?!? EEK!


They'll never take me alive! This weekend went waaaaaay to fast. I don't like it one bit! Oh well, onward and upward! 

Old Sketch Book!

While I was moving I found one of my old sketch books from high school! I'll admit most of it was pretty weird and not all that good. But it was fun to see that kinda things that were going through my mind that the time. What kinda subject content I was into. You can't tell very much from these few pics, I only took photos of the cutesy ones. A lot of creepy going on as a teenager...to say the least. I've definitely gotten more cute in my illustration style. I can't wait until I'm 30 and finding my sketch book from now and thinking the same thing!



(Never been all that good at collages, its something I want to practice and get better at!)




(I guess I've always had a weird thing for monsters.) 



New Home!


After months of searching Zoei and I finally found a house! I think I can finally stop worrying so much about it all now and just focus on packing up my crap. Luckily for me I can take my time! But so much newness I'm not sure my stomach/anxiety can handle it all! New house, new town, new people to live with! I'm hoping this ALL will be good for me and keep my outta a rut! I get to comfortable with routine that I'm afraid I don't have any adventures. When I get older I want to tell my kiddos about crazy things I did in my youth, but right now I don't have any crazy things that I've done! So I think this is the step in the right direction.

I feel good about this and I'm excited about all the changes. Not too excited about packing, but eager to clean out some junk! Happy Weekend! P.S. How adorable is Zoei? She's the cutest!

Lovely things: Street Art Videos

I would love and I mean LOVE to be a street artist! Does anyone know where to start? I'm always so impressed and blown away by amazing street artists. I'm also pretty sure that once I become a street artist then I have to move to Australia. Everyone know they are AMAZING artists. Well, we all have dreams right?







Meow?


I hate to admit this but I think the internet in a weird way is making me like cats?! Like THIS or THAT. I've always had this weird dislike for cats. They always seemed like they knew too much or something. Because let's face it, cats are really bizarre! Upon finding a new love for cats, I can't help but wonder if I really am a cat person. I think that I could be. Although I'll be honest I'm a horrible pet owner. (and also bad with plants) I mean I'm pretty sure my dog is kinda bizarre because of me and I'm not even sure that she likes me. I'm not sure maybe a cat like THIS might be the thing I need! Or maybe I just need to find a cute boy with a cute cat. Yeah, I like that idea better. 



Mind-full

I'm an over thinker and a list maker. Today's post was supposed to be about our new lovely house that Zoei and I are going to move into, but we didn't get the keys today. Apparently the last tenants left it in bad condition and it's taking longer to clean then they had anticipated. But with some luck we should have the keys tomorrow! (Eeep!)

So instead of my super excited moving post, you get a random thinking too much post, in list form.

Thoughts on the brain:
1) I really hate moving. Moving=Cleaning and Cleaning=No fun.
2) I'm in tattoo mood again and think it's about time to commit and get one!
3) I need to get all caught up on my correspondence before moving, so I don't lose any letters!
4) Why am I tired all the time?
5) So many beautiful blogs, not enough time to read them all.
6) How come twitter makes me feel so socially awkward?
7) Ice cream, waffles and pasta...yes yes yes.
8) E.E Cummings is amazing, how am I just now discovering this?
9) So many cd's and concert tickets to buy, but not enough monies.
10) Sometimes I wish someone would paint my nails as I sleep so I can have pretty nails without any of the work.

Wander

Feeling wander-ish today. Is it Friday yet? I'm ready to create stuff and get stuff done, not sit in front of my computer at work all day! But you gotta pay the bills right? I feel jealous of those working their dream job, but I will get there someday!!

take some time